eight.

questions, statements, thoughts scattered across a page.

Green pen

1. i don't know who i am anymore
2. beauty is taking a step forward not behind.
3. it terrifies me (the thoughts of being alone).
4. where do i go next?
5. How should I love?
6. my desires seem empty because it doesn't last. (less of me, more of you)
7. i am tired. i need rest.

Fuchsia Pen

1. why am i so anxious and discouraged?
2. will TIME heal these wounds?
3. WHEN will faith be enough? why do i try so hard?
4. i am out of control.

Purple Pen

1. i am a sinner.
2. i am forgiven.
3. i can succeed.
4. i need.
5. i love.
6. i hope.
7. i won't give up.

Light Green Pen

1. i am afraid of letting go and losing all control.
2. i just want to feel whole again.
3. how come i feel empty?
4. I AM MADE BEAUTIFUL.
5. i want to be defined by your love, not mine, LORD.

Blue Pen

1. what if i stumble what if i fall what if i lose myself and i make fools of us all will the walk continue when the walk becomes a crawl what if i stumble and what if i fall.
2. oh great and mighty one with one desire i come that you would reign that you would reign in me i'm offering up my life a living sacrifice that you would reign that you would reign in me.
3. not to us but to your name be the glory.
4. be still.
5. be known.
6. be loved.
7. show compassion.
8. slow to anger, abounding in love.
9. YOU NEVER LET GO.

i know i will be strong.
i know GOD will provide.
i have unanswered questions, tiresome struggles,
and i don't just want to "get by" anymore.

i desire to become more beautiful from the inside out.

it's going to take some time.